The Hardest Part

The hardest part

Of moving on

Is knowing where to go.

And the hardest thing

When you’re spinning

Is knowing when you’re done 

And I breathe to survive

And I smile while I crumble

But just to walk away, that’s the hardest thing of all


And you’ve moved on

But the loves not gone

You keep it behind your door.

I’m acting sane

While my contrition

Is drowning in the rain 

And I breathe, to survive

And I smile, while I crumble

But just to walk away, well that’s the hardest thing of all

 
All the laughter and all the fear

 All the dreams lost in tears

 It don’t matter now, it don’t matter now

 All the fighting and the sins

 The truth we tried to spin

 It don’t matter now, it don’t matter now


I can’t hold on

Can’t let go.

I’m folded in between.

Did I give enough?

Guess I knew the day

When I gave my soul away.

 And I breathe, to survive.

And I smile while I’m dying

But just to walk away… that’s the hardest thing of all.

That's the hardest thing of all.

That's the hardest thing. 

The Air

Well, I can hear them say 
That you’ve gone away. 
You've gone cold inside
And on your way

But I can say I know you well,
Behind the pain of living well.
You find your lovin’ on the streets of hell
To get what you need

I don’t want to know, I don’t want to hear it
That you do the time, cut the deal,
Then settle in for a nice long freeze.
I want to keep my senses open wide
And touch each other deep inside 
and ride risks of love till there’s nothing left
Till there's nothing in between us,

.....Except the air that we breathe.

All the compromise, was like a thick black line.
You sold all your dreams for what you need.
And then she says its up to you
All those fairytales for fools
'Cause honey, this is what grown ups do
To get what we need.

I don’t want to know, I don’t want to hear it
That you do the time, cut the deal,
Then settle in for a nice long freeze.
I want to keep my senses open wide
And touch each other deep inside 
and ride the risks of love till there’s nothing left,
Till there's nothing in between us,

.....Except the air that we breathe.

And all the lying, and all the crying
Does it mean that much to you baby?
Well we can see right through you baby.
And I'll keep trying, but you're just killing time 
Hanging on to the days of roses and wine.

Well you know you’re not so young,
But you got it goin’ on.
Never guessed that you’d be hangin’ on
For what you need.
'Cause in the morning you’ll be comin’ back, 
Last night you know your love bit back. 
Your heart and soul you’ll never unpack 
Till you get what you need.

I don’t want to know, I don’t want to hear it
That you do the time, cut the deal,
Then settle in for a nice long freeze.
I want to keep my senses open wide
And touch each other deep inside 
and ride the risks of love till there’s nothing left,
Till there's nothing in between us,

.....Except the air that we breathe.
Air that we breathe, air that we breathe,
Air that we breathe... 

As I Am

Measure me, but don’t divide me.
Hard to see, are we together now? 
We are friends, yes, and we are lovers. 
There it stays, so you wonder.

Can you take me as I am, or just let it go?
Take me as I am, or just let it go.

I’m not still,  no, it’s not my time
Well, the walls came down, now I’m flyin'.
And you’re a sweet as a flower,
but you're counting out time
Can we just be here,
And let us just be now?

Can you take me as I am, or just let it go?
Take me as I am, or just let it go. Go. 

I might be wrong, and you might be long gone

Maybe the price of my distance is the crown of a fool
Don’t want to complicate it, there’s no need to excavate me
Honey, this is the sound of the truth from a heart that’s black and blue

Step by step, all in time
Free to stay, no designs
You know we get this far, by workin on what’s true
It’s a big world, but I keep comin back to you.

Take me as I am, or just let me go 

Speak to Me

Speak to me, with your eyes, with your hands. 
Talk to me, without words, I will understand.

William Shakespeare would agree,
The language of love could fool a King.
Words come close but its how you move,
And how, you touch me.

Take my hand, there’s a pulse, but there’s no plan. 
Dance with me, lead me to the rhythm, of your heart
What did Isaac Newton say?
Bodies in motion tend to stay that way.
So how would he describe the heat that tends to rise,
when we collide?
And you speak to me. 

I never heard a sound, but I knew every word
That’s what you do, you speak to me.
I hear your body sing, float me on your breeze
With everything you do, you speak to me.

I study you, without lectures, without books
Scripting this, can’t describe the threshold of this kiss
What did Humphrey Bogart know (when he heard)
Just put those lips together and blow
But for the love scene, it’s best to take it slow, and just let go.

Speak to me,
Speak to me,
Speak to me. 

Something About Goodbye

Something About Good-Bye

There's something about good-bye, the temporary kind
Like, I’ll see you real soon,
But it sometimes crosses my mind,
Was this our last good bye?

I’m here in Music City, putting in my time.
I'm far from my old town,  it gets lonely here sometimes,
but I am fine, and you are on my mind.

Did I say how much I love you? 
Thank you proper for our time?
Did I hold you close enough,
To feel your heart beat, next to mine?
Oh, I miss you...

I signed up for journey, I was shooting for the stars,
I was going for the big time but ended up in bars.
If I’m shakin like The King, or sleepin in my car, I can call on you

I'm counting out my pocket change, I’m fallin' off the line.
Stumbling through the field where dreams go to die.
But you never lost your faith in me,
I can feel you right by my side, sayin...

Did I say how much I love you,
Thank you proper for our time
Did I hold you close enough
To feel your heart beat, next to mine

No, Good bye is not forever
Just a space in our time.
So, until we come together,
While I’m somewhere down the line,
I will miss you. 

There's something about good bye, the temporary kind
Like I’ll see you real soon, but it sometimes crosses my mind
Was this our last good bye? 
Was this our last good bye?
Was this our last good bye? 

Pilgrimage

Pilgrimage

Well, the Train was late about an hour or so
Through the heart of the Delta we would roll
I found Nikki and a Dobro and we started to play
And we rocked that club car for half a day

And the call was bigger than all of us
And the highways jammed, and the pilgrims sang, yeah yeah
And the world rushed by in a half moon light and I wondered about heaven. 
Would I know my muse if she came to play or would I have to fight my way in?

So we said goodbye down on Ursuline
And we’d try for midnight outside the Blue Nile
Well the pilgrims and the rhythm over took my senses,
I tried to hold on, but lost all my defenses

The air in this town is sweet and wet
On the street we danced, and the pilgrims sang, yeah yeah
By the music and the mud, the mesquite and the Bud I was seduced and befriended 
Like a congregation we came to pray, cause we believed like children.
Yeah, yeah 

I’m on a Pilgrimage, yeah yeah, I’m on a Pilgrimage, yeah yeah

I was runnin away from something, I didn’t want to understand.
I was thinkin a little redemption, just might get me through this wasteland. 
There was no where left to turn and I knew that I was fallin',
But my dirty feet found that second line beat, and I could here the stars a callin'

By the very last day my mind was blown.
I was tired, I was wet, and I was ready for home
But there was Big Daddy Bo and his Wild Magnolias
He said stick around Sonny, and I'll show you how its done.

He brought everything he had and I heard him shout...holler up to God. yeah, yeah
Like a puddle in the storm of pilgrims, who knew the story well.
I was shoutin right along with the band that day when my heart began to swell.
He said lord we are hurtin' so bad, can you not hear us as we are cryin'?

That’s when I knew if I kept singin, I just might find my way in.

Hey, 'cause I’m on a Pilgrimage, yeah yeah,
Yes, I’m on a Pilgrimage
Alright 

Killing Your Brother

You've got your finger on the trigger and if you stop to think bout who your killing,
(Do you) think that you’ll be better in the end?
You’re sweating and you’re scared and think that taking someone’s life would somehow
Justify the means to someone's end? 
But no, did you think that this might be someone’s brother,
Maybe someone’s kid or someone’s mother?

Hey! You're killing your brother!
Hey! You’re killing your brother!

Well, the politicians shake their heads while your history has been painted red.
They’ll nod and they’ll agree it’s just a shame.
Yeah, your gangland boss is getting rich, cause man you’re just his little bitch,
Believing that revenge is all it takes.
So no, don't go behind the smoke and body down, 
You will never, oh you'll never find your peace of mind.

Hey!  You’re Killing your Brother!!
Hey!  You’re Killing your Brother!!

I saw 8 year old Regina, on the 6 o’clock news
With the drive by, the cross fire and the funeral,
They're never gonna let you be.
Can you cease fire? Cease fire & break this chain?

I’ve had enough, I’ve had enough,
Have you had enough? Have you?

La la la la, la la la la
La la la la, la la la la
La la la la, la la la la
La la la la, la la la la
La la la la 


Life is sweet but bitterness is something that we all possess, 
It’s just one thing that makes us all the same.
It’s not about the government or someone’s view of God’s intent.  
Own this now, and you’ll own it till the end.
No, don’t tell me that this has to be,
Don’t let them lock away your destiny. 
 
Hey, You’re killing your brother!
Hey, You’re Killing your Brother!
Hey, You’re killing your brother!

Get Back On It

Step into the cool of the evening, naked and undone.
I walk in hibernation, like a blind man on the run
The flame that lights my lovers heart, is a candle in the rain
And my faith is on the battle field, surrendering again

Oh but I, once held heaven in my hands
Oh and I, I’m gonna ride that shining star again
And I’m gonna get back on it, gonna get back on it now.
Gonna find myself some wings, and sail out past these clouds

If you look below the window, on the busy street below
You can see your baby walking, slowly and alone
Well, this blessed union is killing us, not what we bargained for
On the bottom of the ocean, is the pearl we're looking for

Oh but I, once held heaven in my hands
Oh and I, I’m gonna ride that shining star again
And I’m gonna get back on it, gonna get back on it now.
Gonna find myself some wings, and sail out past these clouds. 
I can turn this life around now, and I can get back on it 

And no one hears the sound, when your world comes crashing down
louder than you, this I know is true. 
But theres no wrong or right, when you've been kicked out of your own life
its up to you to get back to what you love

As I stand before the foot lights, and the cheering of the crowd
but it's only in my memories, my dreams eclipsed by clouds
The compromise was easy, and I've given so much more
while my soul and my guitar, lie cold behind the door

Oh but I, once held heaven in my hands
Oh and I, I’m gonna ride that shining star again
And I’m gonna get back on it, gonna get back on it now.
Gonna find myself some wings, and sail out past these clouds 
I can turn this life around now, and I can get back on it 
Gonna get back on it, gonna get back on it now
Gonna find myself some wings, and sail out past these clouds

Fall

Angels disappear as they're the things of air and dreams, 
But I have not that luxury.
For I am flesh and blood, and I’ve had my chance with Icarus wings, 
And I can see what's gonna fall.
Cracks behind the clouds hide dreams of silver stars so high, 
take away these shrouds of home
As I am part of you, you know you'll always be a part of me 
But if you stumble you can fall on me, fall on me.

Fall on me. 
Fall... 
And if your world should start to crumble, and if you fly into the sun 
I'll be nailed upon your doorway, strapped across your bow.
Well it's far from me to remind you we're just human, after all.

Angels disappear as they're the things of air and dreams,
But I have not that luxury.
I kiss the tears you cry and I've come to watch your phoenix fly,
But if you stumble you can fall on me.

Fall on me.
Fall...
And if your world should start to crumble, and if you fly into the sun 
I'll be nailed upon your doorway, strapped across your bow.
Well it's far from me to remind you we're just human, after all.


And if you break down you can wail on me,
And when you come down you can lie with me,
But if you stumble you can fall on me.
Fall on me baby, you can fall on me.
I said, fall on me baby, you can fall on me.

Cry Cry Cry

Cry Cry Cry

I been thinking 'bout the love I let pass me by
Like that statue at the station of some old guy
He looks out as the world just rushes on by
Now those birds have flown, it's him on his horse, and he's turned to stone,
And I

Cry Cry Cry...Cry Cry Cry

Now I’m headed West to Frisco out on Highway 9
They cut this paradise forever, before my, befor my Daddy’s time
And I can fly on right through you now, right to my hallelujah high
But all I can think about is the love I let pass me by,
And I

Cry Cry Cry...Cry Cry Cry

The deeper love surrounds me, the less my ghosts approve
I’ll start disappearing brick by brick, tell you that it’s best for you.
That wont stop my sadness, sure wont slow me down
Cause only runnin' feel right, when love takes you down

Cry Cry Cry... Cry Cry Cry 

Well it’s springtime in Chicago and the gray is all gone
The president is on the TV talking 'bout urban renewal; he’s just ramblin on
Yes, I should be happy, the sun has found the sky,
But all I can think about is the love I let pass me by
And I 

Cry Cry Cry... Cry Cry Cry
Crying, Crying, Crying
Cry Cry Cry 

Butterfly

Butterfly donʼt spread your wings and fly away from me. 
When Iʼm black and blue, it's always you I long to see.
If I chased you and you played,
If I touched you and you stayed,
Would you carry me away?
But I reach for you and you know that I want to keep you,
But for me I know youʼll never stay.
Fly to me, Oh, Fly to me!
Butterfly can you fly when youʼre broken and alone?
Where does lovely hide her sadness when she can't roll on?
Under cover of the night no one sees the tears you cry, or the tatter in your wings.
Oh surrender to the breeze, find a new menagerie and light it up all over again.
Fly to me, Oh, Fly to me!
Rest upon my shoulder and I'll pretend not to see.
But your crazy angle dancing gives you away, always gives you away.
Oooh, la la la, la la la
Oooh, la la la, la la la
Under cover of the night, no one see the tears you cry or the tatter in your wings, 
Oh surrender to the breeze, find a new menagerie and light it up all over again.
Fly to me, oh, fly to me!

Butterfly donʼt spread your wings and fly away from me. 
When Iʼm black and blue it's always you I long to see.

If I chased you and you played,
If I touched you and you stayed, would you carry me away?
But I reach for you and you know that I want to keep you,
But for me I know youʼll never stay.

Fly to me, Oh fly to me!

 

You Come and Go

Words and Music by Brad Cole

So this is how you want it to be?
Live alone in harmony.
Two half circles stand apart
Through the cracks our love leaks out.

So Fly with your circus and your demons and your gold
Wrapped up in your one way love, I wish you well as you come and go.

I used to wish that I could be
All you wanted me to be.
Thought I'd wait a million years, but time can’t bury all those tears
'stead I drank a million beers.

So fly with your pictures and your dishes and your ghosts
You’re packing up our memories but you’re leavin the best behind
And I’ve tried my best to hate you, but I guess I love you still
In this cul-de-sac romance baby, no one wins when you come and go

Have I, wasted all this time?
Holding on, and your movin' on
See my heroes left no one behind
Like you left me, at the end of the line.

This time I won’t chase you down
This time I won’t turn to stone
Once you had the best of me (baby you could never really see)
Well that’s all over now.

So fly with your diamonds, your ambitions and your smile
Another stupid airport scene, but this time I wont cry.
There’s a freeze frame on the scenery, as we whisper our good-byes.
If this time is forever baby, time will tell as you come and go. Time will tell as you...

Way Too Long (Baby, it’s Been)

Words and Music by Brad Cole

Rain drops like on my window
Smoke relieves the focus of my gaze
The vision of my love is fading faster than
The pulse of road kill lyin' in the rain

Baby, it’s been way too long
I said Baby, been way too long

Rustling thru the ashes of your tenderness
Digging thru the trash can of my dreams
Run until I find, what you left behind
That’s painted over all my lonely dreams

Baby, it’s been way too long
I said Baby, been way too long
Way too long, way too long, way too long, way too long. Rustling thru the ashes of your tenderness
Digging thru the trash can of my dreams
Run until I find, what you left behind Baby, it's been way too long, been way too long. I said Baby, been way too long
Way too long, way too long, way too long, way too long.

Waiting For You


We had time, although far to go.
We broke down and moved
To the side of the road.

As summer's wane began
Seekers passed us one by one and stared
From their Caravans.

I didn't know how long,
But somehow, it never seemed wrong.

Now I'm waiting for you with nothing to do
You know I'm calling out for you and I keep on waiting

It's too hot to sleep,
We already had that big talk,
Which you'd eventually need.

With all your problems solved,
We sang empty in the car,
Oh, but still I didn't want to let you go.

I didn't know how long,
But somehow, it never seemed wrong.

Now I'm waiting for you, with nothing to do
You know I'm calling out to you and I keep waiting.
And the days pass like years,
There’s no virtue in standing still
Except the promises to be here
And then to take you home.

But you me dear, were meant for other plans.
You kissed me and you smiled,
And gave me something precious to hold.
And as I turned away I heard you say
"I love you" one last time,
But I could not let you see me crying.

We had time, I remember every scene, and every line.

While you've been gone,
Did you ever think that this was wrong,
Or think of me, sometimes?

I didn't know how long,
Oh, but somehow, it never seemed wrong.

Now I'm waiting for you, with nothing to do
You know I keep calling out to you and I keep waiting
And the days pass like years,
There’s no virtue in standing still
Except the promise to be here
And then to take you home. I'm still waitin', I'm still waitin'...

Summer Leaves

Words and Music by Brad Cole

So blue were all the longest days, and green became the bed on which we played.
And sweet was all we tasted on those Cracker Jack and watermelon days.
Golden breeze would lift us up like butterflies to wander and be wild.
But Grey is a reminder that, what we thought we had would soon be gone.

Then Summer leaves,
And her laughter echoes back to me what serious September brings.
And I’m pulled along, at a different speed.
Turn the page and it’s all gone, gone, gone, gone.

Well crazy is the only way Samsara could be handled at this pace.
When making love and money was all that seemed to matter any way.
We spent every dime we had on an endless night in Chinatown, too high.
Laughing we survived it all, weak but wise enough to take the call.

Then Summer leaves,
Her laughter echoes back to me what serious September brings.
And I'm pulled along, at a different speed.
Turn the page while it’s all going down.

So fly on home
Cause when she's gone
You got to let her go

I'm floating on my back, like a leaf down the river, lazy and ripened in the sun
They are fleeting in their beauty, but my memories seem better on the run
Waterfall, my peace has fallen.
Cold, my soul's gone pale.
I'm puzzling the pieces, moving on and shouldering the pain.

Then Summer leaves,
And her laughter ripples back to me what serious September brings.
And I’m pulled along, at a different speed.
Turn the page and it’s all gone, gone.

Then Summer leaves,
And her laughter echoes back to me what serious September brings.
I’m pulled along, at a different speed…

Something to Believe In

Words and Music by Brad Cole

They’ll be no more mercy, Baby.
And the stars tonight are droppin angels, one by one.
And if this is the end of the road,
Well it’s really not as pretty as I pictured it to be.

Oh, but it’s late, and I wait in vain and I know you ain’t commin’ back again
So silently I wave from the other side.
And I’ve tried, about everything to change the world we are livin in when
All I ever really wanted was something to believe in.

You been playin truth or consequences.
Spent the rest of your magic on a trip to the top of the world.
But the big man’s cast his fate and you’re floatin ‘buv the killin floor with
No one round to hear the cries, and no one to hear the whispers.

Oh but it’s late, and I wait in vain cause I know you aint comin back again,
We live and die but I get left behind. And we live, with these fucked up (crazy)
Dreams while God plays poker in the gallery, when all we ever really
Wanted was something to believe in.

Well what is night bet a place between the light. Where the silence calls
Your name, and the answers never came.
But in the light an essence remains of the beauty of your face,
Wrapping round me like a rainbow.

I been savin all my tips in boxes.
And pull out one to ponder on and frame my explanation.
“To the Master of Disguise, whose message fills my eyes.
Naked we come and naked we go, but the gold gets left behind.”

Oh but it’s late, and I wait in vain, cause I know you ain’t comin back again
So silently I wave from the other side.
And we tried, about everything to change the world we are livin in when
All I ever really wanted was something to believe in.

La de da da, La de dum dum da, La de dum dum yeah, yeah, yeah

My Oasis

Words and Music by Brad Cole

Same sun and the same moon, but its a mad, mad world
and this city buys and sells.
Like a beach that's full of empty shells,
I was empty as a dusty well
and torn and tattered I washed up on your shore.

I never had to meet you half way
Never mattered when I came or if I stayed

You're my, my Oasis, bruised and battered I washed up on your shore
You're my, my oasis, I'm comin back for more.

Same wave but a different ocean, and we were taking on the world,
But I was fallin like a stone.
You gave me colors blue and gold,
A cup of tea and a dream to hold
And tenderness to keep me from the cold.

I never had to meet you half way
Never mattered when I came or if I stayed

You're my, my Oasis, I was shocked and shattered but showed up at your door.
You're my, my oasis, take me back once more.

On the days I see all those shades of gray, then I drift off to you, drift off to you.
Now, I'm not the kind to be satisfied, yet I am here laughing like a child, right next to you, I want to belong to you

The seasons change and I wonder, does your water still shine blue?
Does your flag wave welcome in the breeze?
In this desert of humanity there's little left to capture me,
except the road that leads me back to you.


I never had to meet you half way,
Never mattered when I came or if I stayed.

'Cause, You're my, my Oasis, I was bruised and battered, but banging on your door
You're my, my oasis, will you take me back once more? You're my, my Oasis, You're my, my Oasis, You're my, my Oasis, Take me back once more.

Monster

Words and Music by Brad Cole

There’s a Monster in this house
Hiding in blue jeans
There's danger in this house
It's bursting at the seams

There’s a Monster in your bed
Holding you close and wishin you dead
Lying in your bed
And kissing you instead

He's stealing all your years, He feasts upon your darkest fears

Silver bullets or wooden spikes,
Garlic necklace or Jesus Christ
Open arms can save his soul,
Invite him in cause he won't let go

There’s a Monster at your door
But he’s not lookin in
Pretend that you don’t see him
And he’ll never let you be

Hungry eyes that see, beauty across a broken bridge

Silver bullets and wooden spikes,
Garlic necklace or Jesus Christ
Open arms can save his soul,
Invite him in cause he wont let go

There’s Monster in this house
Monster in this house
Monster in this house
Monster in this house

Empty

Words and Music by Brad Cole

Back on the road, spendin my time.
Nothin particular, rulin’ my mind.
Could have been different, so hard to see,
What I was chasin’ was not meant for me.
But you'll never know.

And I'm losin’ my way after way too much time,
Of givin’ my best to you, body and mind.
Could have been different, so hard to see,
What I was chasin’ was not meant for me.
But you'll never know. I've thrown all your windows and I've banged all your doors,
I've swam all your oceans, and I've cried out for more.
Well empty‘s not as bad as I thought it would be,
I’ve paid for my choices but empty is free.

Dreams crushed like diamonds to dust,
This is not where I expected to be.
It's funny with losin’ somehow,
We end up where we needed to be.
Walk on
I'm turning the page, droppin all lines,
Leavin’ my baggage on the steps of your shrine.
Could have been different, so hard to see,
What I was chasin’ was not meant for me.

But you'll never know.
Thrown all your windows and banged all your doors,
Swam all your oceans, and cried out for more.
Well Empty‘s much more than I thought it would be,
I’ve paid for my choices but empty is free. Empty is free Empty is free Empty is free Walk on...

Drag this Love Around

Words and Music by Brad Cole

My silly little saint,
Slips between the lies of love.
Pretty as an angel of the morning,
With Diamonds in her eyes

Didn’t really care,
Blind to all the warning signs.
Wrapped in my menagerie,
I traded in my love for lies, and left me cryin.

And then you try to paint the blame on me,
Set me up to pay for what is free.
Doesn’t mean I have to drag this love around

Never see me pull the curtain down,
With subtlety of red I paint this town.
You might be done and through with your past
But your past might not be through with you.

She's debutante and lace,
Your charade of loving kindness.
Fabulous when on your back,
Your Oscar winning habitat is your device.

Were you really just that good?
Or do you believe in your own lies?
So foolishly I’d contemplate,
And always under estimate, your mind, and now who’s cryin’?

And then you try to paint the blame on me,
Set me up to pay for what is free.
Doesn’t mean I have to drag this love around

Oh no, no, no, no Never see me pull the curtain down,
With subtlety of red I paint this town.
You might be done and through with your past
But your past might not be through with you. Twisted and Strange,
How it got that way?
From a love so deep it was intoxicating,
I was drowning while you were parading

And when you say,
In your pretty little way
All I want is somebody to love me,
You could ride but you never could run with me. My silly little saint,
Slips between the lies of love.
Pretty as an angel of the morning,
With Diamonds in her eyes And then you try to paint the blame on me,
Set me up to pay for what is free.
Doesn’t mean I have to drag this love around

Oh no, no, no, no Never see me pull the curtain down,
With subtlety of red I paint this town.
You might be done and through with your past
But your past might not be through with you. With you...